|5.28.06 - 11.54am
I feel it is necessary for me to leave this community as well as the other communities I'm in because I believe I was merely bi-curious. Since I am no longer curious, i.e. I realize I want to be with a guy, one guy in particular, I am leaving. I wish you all the best.
cross posted to all my communities.
|11.13.05 - 9.10am
Thursday was our band banquet. We went to this bar/restaurant/club and rented it out. We had chicken served to us, mmmmm sooo good. Watched a short 'movie' about the semester, gave out awards, took pictures and generally just all hung out in nice clothes acting all cool. Lol It was a lot of fun. Saw Kris there. Havent really seen or talked to her for like 2 weeks since we're not in band anymore. And since she has a gf. I've told her I liked her, but that I did not want to be the reason she ever broke up with everyone. I dont even want to give her the opportunity to cheat, ya know? So I've been good. When I do talk to her, its as just friends. When we're around eachother, I try to stay outside of touching distance...
However, Thursday night, after banquet there was a party at our friends house. Kris came. There was a lot of alcohol. I was at the bar playing a drinking game and Kris sat down next to me to play too. (I was still doing good at this point). Then somehow she ended up in my lap. It was just very bad. She looked so hot all night long too. damn. So basically she was like wrapped around me trying to not fall over and I was trying my hardest to watch out for her too. Went around the corner to talk to someone and she came too, so I was talking to Kris alone for a minute and leaning against the wall and she put her hand on my hip and leaned in and oh dear, it was so close. But at the last second I turned my head and nothing. I wanted to kiss her so bad, but not like that. She was drunk, so was I, she's taken, and she would just regret it tomorrow. And I dont want to be someone/something she regrets.
So she got home and I got home safely. Talked to her on my phone till like 2 am. She said she had to drive to Dallas the next morning at 5am to speak to an army representative. I told her she needed to get some rest because I wanted to make sure 'the girl that stole away my breath tonight' gets there safely. *sigh* Damnit. Almost made it through the whole night being good. So she said I looked beautiful that night all dressed up and I said whatever, have fun with your gf and hung up. I feel like a bitch. What the hell am I doing? She's bad for me. I know this. Nothing will ever come of this. I know this too. So what am I doing? Why can I not just tell her NO!? Current Mood: stressed
|10.16.05 - 12.13am
Alright, since I'm the mod here, I'll start with introducing myself.
I'm 20 years old, *single*, currently a college student in pre-pharmacy. I'm bi and recently have come out to seeminly EVERYONE in my school, unbeknownst to me. Lol I play the trumpet in my school's band, I'm in a sorority, love hanging out with my friends, partying, sleeping, watching movies, web/grapic design, just about anything.
Not really sure what else anyone wants to know, so if you have a question, feel free to ask and I'll answer!
And here's a small pic of me until I get a better one: